F this shite

I am something precious that I did not take care of. I made a mistake. It happens.....

Do, say, think, feel, believe whatever you want in order to convince yourself that it is ok that you lost me. You blew it. You fucked up. Madonna/Whore complex.... narcissistic emotional vampire... you don't like when I call you names. Names mean you have to relate to something. You can't afford the luxury of ignorance when it is pointed right out in front of your nose. GO FUCK YOURSELF. I will call you by every name evil has or ever had. Sooner or later, by the law of averages, I will hit on the right one. You are the embodiment of Satan. Your mother should hide her face in shame for who you have turned out to be....

I will no longer allow you to manipulate my emotions. I will no longer allow you to abuse my soul. Your reign of terror in my life is OVER. You have held court and sat in my throne long enough. Out damn spot......out! How dare you linger one more second in my thoughts, insidisously trying to control my essense like some sort of insane puppet master as you imbibe my very life blood. You my friend are a fraud. You do not deserve to usurp my happiness and I will no longer allow you to drink from my fountain like some sort of vampire.

I am sick of being sad. I am a shadow of my former self and I am here to reclaim what is mine... ME! I will not wither into a corn husk to be blown around by your bluster. You don't like it? Again... I invite you to go fuck yourself.

I don't need concrete evidence to see what it is that you are... I just needed to wake up and call the pattern by the name you have known all your life. You have flown under my radar long enough. The food court is closed.... go sate your hunger elsewhere casualty vampire.

I found what I thought was the strongest most bad ass guy I could .... only to discover what a feeble small pathetic child lies beneath the surface when it is scratched. I did this to myself and I take full responsibility for letting you over the threshhold. The only person that is going to clean up this mess is me and I am ready to get to work. I will not sacrifice my pride, dignity, soul, individuality, independence on any fucking altar no matter how rich the robes you are dressed in while you mutter your insane double talk.

Any other homeless unemployed person that was spewing nonsense would force me to walk away quickly while taking care.... you will be no different from here forward. I woke from your spell, snake charmer. It may have taken a bit longer than it should have but the most important part of any journey is realizing when you get to the end. Fini