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R U Happy? R U Mad?

Tex-onics… gotta love them. I have been kind of a dry spell lately. Looking back over the past year or so, I notice a pattern… I bitch a lot about being unhappy with my situation and I follow a lunar cycle. Interesting….

I used to bitch about esoteric crap and the injustice of things… ummmm… and my divorce. My divorce (or more accurately what I was going through and what I felt) elicited a lot of strong emotion out of me. This of course followed NO cycle as it was just one big onslaught of craptastic interaction or a frustrating lack of any. I digress…..

I got two text messages the other day. I suppose in their own way they are essentially the same question just fragmented through different prisms. My ex husband wants to know if I am happy. My ex-boyfriend wants to know if I am mad. In their own right, I love both of these people very much for the part they have played and continue to play in my life. Some parts end… some roles are recurring… and as anyone has seen a soap opera knows… there are always “power couples” who withstand all sorts of crap like kidnapping, botched DNA tests, the supernatural, coma’s, earthquakes, alien abduction…. I am a sum of my parts and I don’t believe in amputating people from my life in their entirety. Maybe I just watched too much General Hospital in my youth and it warped me. I mean Luke raped Laura but they are the epitome of true love. Go figure. See … definitive proof that television you watch as a kid does shape you!!!!

Am I happy? Am I mad? The answer is yes.

(Or, I suppose in tex-onics….. Y)